This Month is "Break Month"

So, I'm finally at a point where I'm wanting to just forget about trying to get pregnant. Relax, and enjoy life without thinking about pregnancy. I'm not sure how well that will work a couple of weeks from now, but it's Christmas time so I hope I'll be distracted enough to not think too much about the possibility of being pregnant. I have decided to not take my temp this cycle, at least until I think that I'm probably past my af date. I am trying to not go on any pregnancy website or google all things trying to conceive. It is my intention to try to keep my mind away from things that will make trying to get pregnant the forefront in my mind. I want to be at a point where I don't really think about pregnancy, and then when it does happen it will be something that I wasn't holding my breath for all the time. I just want it to happen when it's supposed too. Obviously I'm not in charge of my fertility. God is. He knows when it's going to happen so I just need to relax and let go. I just want to take the energy from thinking about getting pregnant and put it to something more useful for the time being. I don't think it's wrong to wish hope and think about becoming pregnant, but I have realized it's gotten me nowhere. I'm still not expecting. So, me wasting my energy on thinking about it isn't doing me any good. So, here I am, trying to try the least out of any month we've every tried. Hope it works! Pray for me when you think of me if you would!