2dpo!

Somehow I'm on 2dpo and I hardly know how I got this far already. I'm just so distracted by other things, the last month and a half I have not been thinking nearly as much about getting pregnant as normal. Ovulation snuck up on me. That was nice! I O'd apparently on cd 16, although my temp jump wasn't that high. But I'll count it as ovulation as this morning my temp was up even higher. Either way, everything timed out properly, so we're in the race again! Best part is, if we are pregnant (well, that itself would be the best part) squishy would be due Dec 14th, J's birthday! He's quite happy at that prospect. So, it's been a month or so since J's been taking fertilaid and I took a small dose of fertilaid the past couple weeks. Hopefully their concoction of fertilty inducing supplements will do the trick! Well, it's supposed to take sperm 72 days to replenish themselves so fertilaid might not kick in until next month or the next one. But I feel quite positive about how that could affect things. I did O earlier than I have in a while. So that was super wonderful! Get in more chances! And the egg quality is supposed to be better if you ovulate earlier on in your cycle than day 18 or so. So yay!!

Another Big Gap... I Suck at This Haha!

So I am probably the worst blogger ever. Oh well. :) Sorry to let down those who have actually come and read my blog. I love reading other people's blogs but it's just so hard for me to commit to it. So another couple of months have past. No pregnancy. I'm not depressed about it. In fact sometimes I feel very special that God has chosen me to go through this when most people don't. It's for a real purpose, and even though I don't know what it is, I'm encouraged because God thinks that I can handle this trial! He has confidence that I can go through this. Otherwise He wouldn't have brought me through it. So, yes, this road SUCKS HARDCORE, but I do have encouragement in it. I also have really crappy moments. In general, the feeling I get is a lot more sour than it used to be. But in my defense, I have stayed I think very upbeat in general about this whole thing. I mean, I have faced this infertility and two miscarriages for over four years now. That's a feat in itself! I do want to stay upbeat, but it is harder than it used to be and I am more sad about it than I ever used to be ever since our last miscarriage early last year.
Jay is feeling quite confident that I will get pregnant not this month but the next. So we'll see if that is true. :) You never know. God told Him last time that I would become pregnant. Maybe He's giving Jay and inkling this time. Oh I hope so! But if not, I'll just keep waiting...