Trying to get pregnant, hoping I'm pregnant, etc is getting really old. I don't even really care about looking at cute baby clothes, or baby related things anymore. It just feels like a dead end road. I still believe someday we'll have our own children. But let's face it. It could be another 10 years. I don't know that it won't . So it's pretty much a waste of my time to keep thinking about it and hoping each month. Because hoping opens myself up to being let down. I think I need to start not expecting anything. I wish there was an easy way for me to forget about trying to get pregnant and just live without this in my head. It's hard though when I have to be careful half the month because I might be pregnant so I can't eat certain things and that's a reminder. I enjoy being just me and JJ. I feel like I am happy with just the two of us. So for that I'm thankful. There are many things we can enjoy right now that we couldn't with children.
On to other things, I no longer work as a receptionist. And I have told my friend that I am going to sign up to do Arbonne. I've been thinking about that for a couple years off and on. I just about started 8 or so months ago, and now that I'm inbetween jobs again I just have to try it. If I don't like it I can quit and get a different job. But I need to see if this is something I want to do. So if you want to host a party or buy products let me know! Arbonne is natural skin/health/beauty products. Something that is important to me is trying to live a healthier more chemical-free lifestyle.
To whoever reads this, have a wonderful day!
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